.Wednesday, January 25, 2012 '
Some nights, I feel very light. It's as if my insides are made out of bubble gum or thin glass. It's as if I am filled with helium. I feel so light, like a feather. Like if I concentrate enough, I might just be able to float and maybe fly.
These nights, I can hear myself think: different voices talking or screaming inside of my head. Each saying something different. Each wanting me to feel something. It might sound noisy or messy, but it isn't really. My brain gets tired and it shuts down after a while.
Then, my face just goes blank. The light in my eyes just disappear. No more smile.
No more life.
After a while, I can hear my heart beating really loudly. Beat by beat, it just keeps going. It's strong, unlike my person. When I am all alone, I become weak. Small.
I shut my eyes for a bit.
And if I shut my eyes long enough and concentrate, I can hear the echoes of my heartbeat from inside of me. Beating really loudly. Because my insides are gone.
No soul. No spirit. No person.
I am hollow.
I might be alive.
But that is the sound of nothingness.
I am empty.
.Monday, January 23, 2012 '
Everything's very strange today.
Have I ever mentioned how bad I am at asking for favours especially from family? Funny huh. I think it is sort of funny.
They never were familiar people. Maybe I am just the odd one out.
.Sunday, January 22, 2012 '
I think what I just felt was sadness.
.Sunday, January 15, 2012 '
"I'm sorry I grew up way too fast." - Akon
Hmm. I still don't have the motivation to study. It's like I have no more energy to pick up my books and start working. It's strange that I feel this way since I usually enjoy learning new things and feeling smart.
I don't know what's happening to me. This sure sucks.
.Wednesday, January 11, 2012 '
Excuse me, but I believe I am to be respected as an individual even if I am just a mere student to you.
You can't just go around insulting me, calling me an idiot or a moron or whatever other insults you can think of anytime you want. You are not paid to do that. You are not even paid to abuse your authority like that. You are paid to teach us and probably help us to score well. Maybe even encourage us to do better.
Hello?
We didn't even offend you or anything and you just had to treat me, actually all of us like some bunch of brainless people that do not belong here. Yea, I heard you called yourself a bitch the first time you introduced yourself to the other class but it doesn't mean it gives you the permission to treat us any way you want.
Don't know how to start? Well, let me give you a hint.
Try starting your e-mails with 'Dear' and stop using so many 'I's in your e-mails. You are not Queen of Everything, sadly. Even if you are, not everything in this world revolves around your wants and demands.
We might be students but we are individuals as well. We have our own wants and demands and standards on how we want to be treated. We don't ask for much. We are not unreasonable. We just don't want you to keep insulting us and being so hypersensitive about every single thing. You are being a bully, not a teacher.
You are misusing your rights and I really hope you will stop and wake up from your delusional dream that you can order people around and escape it.
Face it.
And as I quote you, "Suck it up."
.Thursday, January 5, 2012 '
If you leave me questions on formspring, you check out my formspring account for my reply: http://www.formspring.me/thisisatypogirl . None of the other social media things are working or posting the questions now, for some odd reason. Sorry for the inconvenience!
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Drawing random birds on my notebook. Hahaha. Wondering what I do when I am bored? I think my notebook will be full of nonsense by the end of the first semester. No motivation to do mathematics. Meh.
I was supposed to be at the airport sending Zi Yi off anyway. Geez.
.Wednesday, January 4, 2012 '
Today's sort of nice though I was tired most of the time.
Anyway, have you ever wondered if there was someone out there in this world... Thinking exactly the same thoughts as you, looks exactly like you and acts just the way you do?
Scary huh?
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Anyway, I thought about it and well, I guess I am going into Theatre school. I was thinking of getting a diploma over at the Intercultural Theatre Institute then head over to LaSalle for Musical Theatre. I still want my gap years after my 'A' levels though.
I really hope I know what I am doing.
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Question of the day: Should I head over to Cat Socrates to buy stuff again?
